Detached

I feel so detached from the world. I don't know what are the latest happenings. I had to google what's KONY when friends are mentioning about it. I had to google names of events/songs whenever people talked about it. This is bad, I used to keep myself updated with everything and i give people the look if they don't know the latest gossips or news. Now, feel free to give me the look too.

I feel so disconnected from people nowadays. Seriously, I'm only able to reach out to an extent, well, what do you think I am? An automatic machine? Sorry, I'm not. Whether or not you think it's worthy to take the initiative to share your joy/sorrow with me, it's entirely up to you. I can't invade your privacy, no matter how close you are to me. There is always a limit man. The thought of me trying to know about anything, everything related to you already makes me feel like I'm being an insane creep, let alone you, you would be so horrified for not being able to breathe freedom.

Everyone's busy, everyone says so. But hey, if you really have the intention of talking to someone, you will put down whatever you're occupied with, and spend your time catching up with them. Even if it's 20 minutes, it will make a difference. At least to me I think it will.
Anyway, I don't want to exert pressure on any of you, I know you guys are busy adapting to your busy life and busy feeling anxious about the soon-to-be-know results. The whole world just happens to be so busy while I seem like the only person who's not, when in fact I'm just as equally busy as any of you. But still, I am willing to give my time to people. Sadly, none of the recipients turn out to be the ones that I expect would bombard me with things that are happening in their lives.

I feel like I've not been living my life to the full extent. I try to be involved in everything, try to make my last year in high school a memorable year. I spend my time wisely, I cut down on socializing and try to focus on what i'm pursuing. Yes this involves hell lot of sacrifices, I'm giving up things that I once thought I could not survive with. This isn't easy and i'm trying my best, but still I don't think it's enough. How can people be so perfect so easily when perfection seems like an unrealistic approach to me? ugh.

The mind is indeed a powerful thing. All of your thoughts, be it negative or positive, is results of your own decision to think in that way. So, I guess I'm just trying to create problems of my own pffttt.

Stop babbling. Dive into reality and solve your own problems you fool because nowadays, who on earth would have time to care about your problems?

18th.

Last Saturday.

Vivien x Neri 

George x Becky x Neri x Allie

Sarah x Tilly x Becky x Neri x Vivien

Happy birthday Sarah! I love you gorgeous :)

 it was a lovely night! I enjoyed it and I was alcohol-free that night #justsaying :) 

Decision time!

Hello there, it's been a while. MAN! A WHILE ? It's March already, time flies huh. As much as I wanna deny this fact, I can't because it's true :/ I'm supposed to be happy about it, well yes I am happy, but I really hope it'll pass faster so my June holidays comes faster. However, at the same time, I want it to go more slowly so I have more time to sort out things, more time before I'm entering uni, more time.. just more time to you know, to be able to breathe. SACs are already in progress, and I have to ace every single one. Stress stress stress man.

I've been reading blogs, but not blogging myself. Simply because there's nothing special, it'll be boring if I were to blog my school life over again and again right. I'll just blog when something special comes up, so, does opinions on dresses count? HAHA.

You know girls, they can't make decisions. They change their minds as fast as the speed you flip a page of a book. I'm not exaggerating, it's actually freakishly true. I'm not being sexist, duh, I'm a girl myself and though I'm not very obsessive about fashion YET, I still encounter what-to-wear problems occasionally. LIKE THIS TIME.

So, I'm gonna attend my friend's 18th, the theme is casual, which makes it every harder. I rather the theme to be nerds or some freakish halloween themes, so I don't have to care about dressing up weirdly you know? I'm just seeking opinions on dresses,not the full outfit. Very bizarre request I know lol. 

I'm fussing over the dress because I want it to be ZE RIGHT DRESS. Just like how you want your other half to be ZE RIGHT ONE. I know dresses are not living things, but since I'm #foreveralone, I wanna have a good date with my dress okay?

Excuse me for the poor qualities of photos and the background. And oh, if none seems pleasing to the eyes, don't be harsh, gimme subtle comments. Boy they would be so much more appreciated :)

Cos hey, I have feelings too. :)

SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK?? 

 ♥

Spread ze 1D love baby ♥

Here I am, to spread ze 1D love. They're all so cute, plus those super 'attracting-neri' british accents.Super in love with their songs, got all of their songs in my phone, iPod, lappie. Literally everywhere, anywhere :)

AREN'T THEY CUTEE?? NAWW.

I love one direction but my particular obsession is DIRECTED towards the one and only :

ZAYN MALIK <3

He has the best features. 

..the best 'coolness'...

....and the cutest smile ever :) 

You see, the best thing about being #foreveralone is you get to drool over hot guys- though people do laugh at you for being unrealistic. but hey screw you, at least i don't have to worry about the other half being jealous or insecure because of my obsession on these 1Derful guys man. 

Isn't that too cute? Naw.

1D-Baby you light up my world like nobody else :) 

 

That's what makes you beautiful ♥

Simply because...

BEING 

SO,

BECAUSE..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY <3

I planned to do a much more fancier and prettier video but I couldn't do it because i don't have the software :( I'm so sorry for this crappy quality of video! :( 

But, i still hope you'll like the background song and wishes :)

It's 'TRUE FRIEND' if you're curious:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING!

i love you :)

Life goes on.

HOLA! Here you go- Another short, and pointless video, me thinks. Anyways, i just wanna update something. Enjoy watching? oh yeah you better do lol.

BTW,
i love reading comments. it just made me feel like people actually appreciate my thoughts or feelings. And usually feedbacks help us to improve right? I love commenting on other peoples' posts too TEEHEE!

School's tomorrow :/ I hope I have a genie that makes all my wishes come true, like INSTANTLY.  THE MONTH OF JUNE, Y U NOT HERE YET TT

P/S: My voice is pretty soft here i guess, so maybe tune up a little? ahha. oh and also, my cbox doesn't work, so leave me comments people :)